And no, I haven’t gotten it. I haven’t been getting the impetus to go beyond my normal “less than 500 word” blog entries. It’s frustrating that there are so many things in my head but I find it so hard to let them out in a coherent manner like writing.
Right now my brain is a mash of flying ideas and random emotions. It’s a very uncomfortable time right now when I’m uncomfortable even around people who I’ve known for AT LEAST 7 years. I’m tired alot so I’m probably in a low point/valley of my “bi-polar-ness”. I don’t really understand why I’m feeling like this or what triggered it. I guess the family situation has finally gotten to me.
I’ve also found a sort of comfortable niche in my photography. I’ve always wanted to take photos of people and I really like the energy of music so I’ve been looking forward to gigs and concerts to take photos of. I’m not that good at it yet as my framing and certain issues have been popping up BUT I’m getting somewhere.
If you’re a photographer and you want to get better, go over to www.kenrockwell.com and read up. REALLY read up. He makes sense. Admittedly, I don’t agree with some of his points BUT he knows his shit. Don’t be caught up in your preconceptions, READ. Then go and make your own way. That’s what I did.
Okay, here’s something I’ve been thinking of doing with friends. A photo-safari somewhere, ANYWHERE. I don’t really care anymore. I want to have fun with friends and photography again. I may actually pop out the film camera and some of the treasured VELVIA 50s I’ve been keeping in stock for this safari. Which reminds me, it’s time to go buy some film. I hear fuji megamall just got some new stock.
I’m glad that the LSI camera I started on, a HOLGA 120CFN, was one of the “serious” Lomographic cameras. This is entirely my opinion but you can’t go around expecting the camera to do all the work for you. The artsy side of Lomo(which is what alot of people don’t REALLY get) is that you create the image in your mind’s eye, you don’t just go snapping up every single thing you see praying to get something good. That sometimes works, admittedly, but put in a bit of effort man! You have to set up the multiple exposures to actually make them MEAN SOMETHING. This is the same reason why some people with digital cameras infuriate me. They keep shooting, hoping for a good shot that they can post. Why don’t they MAKE a good shot so they can post it?
Now, let me tell you about my newest sourceS, PLURAL, of camera lust.
I’ve been wanting for an OLYMPUS 35RC for a long time now, and now that I have the money to get one, I can’t find one conveniently available. Can anyone help me? PLEASE!
I’ve also found a Nikon FG camera with a 50mm f/1.8 that’s very reasonably priced. Great find, but now I have to get more funds. This is a situation I normally have a hard time handling. Hehe.
So there, I finally have the long entry I was looking for with the needed RANTAGE and RAVE-AGE to get my emotions out. Yay for me!